sweet schrödinger's

3 things that make you happy:

• schrödinger's
• underwear
• plaid

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• bitter
• sweet

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• stripes
• knits

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• dan

ground lichen

3 things that make you happy:

• lichen
• 365nm
• zwb2

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• rain
• more rain

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• ground hog
• valentines

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• LT

expressive exhalation

3 things that make you happy:

• illumination
• exhalation
• olfactory stimulation

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• therp
• calm

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• expression
• impression

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Mineko

outdoor fluorescence

3 things that make you happy:

• fluorescence 
• phosphorescence
• bioluminescence

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• grocery stores
• out-of-doors

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• budding trees
• summer breeze

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• raven

odd balls

3 things that make you happy:

• balls
• cubes
• reflections

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• daylight
• dusk

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• odd moments
• mysterious longings

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• mkm

strange bark

3 things that make you happy:

• socks
• foothills
• streams

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• peppermint bark
• strange interludes

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• unmasked
• strange exceptions

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Stella Tennant ("... she was candid about being in modelling for the money, earned by her attitudinous slouch, unseductive catwalk locomotion, free-ranging elbows and a resting face not meant to ingratiate."}

"I pledge allegiance to the flag ..."

"Our Father, who art in heaven ..."

"I do solemnly swear that I will support the Constitution ..."

These and other words, read or remembered, seem to always echo in my mind with a multitude of other voices around me, saying the words almost, but not quite, in sync, my own voice strongest in my head, but blending into the multitude.

There are other words, read or remembered, that also echo in my mind with a multitude of voices, but all of those versions of my own voice, saying the words almost, but not quite, in sync, my present voice strongest in my head, but blending into the multitude:

"I hear her speaking words of love,

and my mind scatters like storm deer 

under moonlight.

Careful words and

forever is not one of them,

yet still I'd run from them

along places I've never been,

following storm deer.

There are no words of love

unless received in love:

We stay, 

shadows of storm deer around

but not between us."

I wrote those words almost 47 years ago, about a friend who broke up with me a year later.

In the aftermath of that blow, I turned to friends for help and support, one of whom slowly became foremost in friendship, and eventually love, even through episodes of storm and shadow.

I took a break in writing this to go into the other room and tell her I love her forever forever forever.

Of everything about this season, the best Christmas presence is hers.

shitloads of vague

3 things that make you happy:

• feet
• meters
• shitloads

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• partial recovery
• chocolate

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• vague sense of satisfaction
• smiles in public

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• nlc

more something

3 things that make you happy:

• something
• in the way she moves
• attracts me

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• like no other
• lover

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• more
• and more

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jo

feldbahn kipploren

3 things that make you happy:

• kipploren
• feldbahnen 
• long views

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• small pleasures
• old things

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• April
• June

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• vo

[map - showing road route, not track route]

sky wurst

3 things that make you happy:

• old stuff
• old friends
• old-fogey-ness

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• wurst
• sky

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• asparagus
• aspies

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• carol

pencil perplexity

3 things that make you happy:

• pencils
• potatoes
• pozole

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• puzzles
• perplexity

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Stillaguamish
• Skagit

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• ws

excess fungi

3 things that make you happy:

• fungi
• bryophytes
• fibonacci numbers

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• excess
• recess

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Jordan Bridge
• Lower Crab Creek

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• jh

fruitcake flag

3 things that make you happy:

• rainbow flags
• Sachsenross flag 
• American flag

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• box cat
• amiable afternoon

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• fruitcake
• family

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• mkm

friendship fuzziness

3 things that make you happy:

• bakelite
• brass
• breakfast

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• fog
• fuzziness

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• family
• friendships

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• jg

fiat

bending jello

3 things that make you happy:

• sammiches
• jello
• ice cream

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• bent wire
• bent wit

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• bending words
• bending rivers

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• a stranger

hog foolishness

3 things that make you happy:

• silliness
• foolishness
• goofiness

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• beach
• rrtrax

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Yakima Canyon
• Ground Hog day

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jay Inslee

spaghetti boogers

3 things that make you happy:

• booger jokes
• bratwurst
• monkey business

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• semi-shutdown
• sustenance 

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• snow
• spaghetti

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• VO

walking thumbs

3 things that make you happy:

• thumbs
• ears
• ankles

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• mail
• hand labyrinth

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• walking labyrinth
• river walk

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Rolf Lüttgers

tamale trends

3 things that make you happy:

• tardigrades 
• timpani
• tamales

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• technology
• tortillas

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• tuesday
• trends

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Joe Biden

impermanent cheese

3 things that make you happy:

• idiot cats
• imaginary hamsters
• ordinary cheese

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• impetuosity 
• intrigue

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• impermanence
• sausage biscuits

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• hannler

viscous dawn

3 things that make you happy:

• maple
• flax
• dawn

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• birds
• books

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• vaccine
• viscosity

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• MC

breakfast brass

3 things that make you happy:

• Jo
• tacos
• brass objects

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• peanut butter
• breakfast

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• January
• May

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jo

salted walks

3 things that make you happy:

• stuffed peppers
• salted caramel ice cream
• silliness

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• lassitude
• lethargy

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• woods walks
• river walks

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Bob Stewart

Bremervörde-Osterholzer Eisenbahn

stairway pizza

3 things that make you happy:

• stairways
• hidey-holes
• small things

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• therapy
• pizza

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• snow
• thunderstorms

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Mineko

Feldbahn locomotive, near Bremerhaven, 1971

penultimate green

3 things that make you happy:

• pumpkin pie
• puddles
• penultimates

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• purple
• green

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• therapy
• vaccine

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jo

comic wading

3 things that make you happy:

• pencil sharpeners
• bratwurst
• comic strips

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• nap
• reading

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• beach
• wading

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jo

hunger water

3 things that make you happy:

• water
• woods
• wombats

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• history
• hunger

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• 2021
• 2022

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Eliza

ironic impetuosity

3 things that make you happy:

• irony
• elision
• empathy

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• inching
• indecision

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• entropy
• impetuosity  

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• KEJ

recovery waves

3 things that make you happy:

• waves
• wind
• wandering

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• rest
• reappraisal

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• rivers
• recovery

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• ToeFur

episodic brass

3 things that make you happy:

• smallishness
• warm colors
• brass

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• pie
• bakelite

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• episodic conundrums
• family

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Carol

purple noon

3 things that make you happy:

• purple
• green
• 
• 
  

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• railroad tracks
• random small pleasures

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Noon, January 20, 2021
• rainbows

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• lab tech lfp

sharpen marmalade

3 things that make you happy:

• marmalade
• mountains
• Möbius+Ruppert Spitzer

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• library
• lunch

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Klickitat
• KUM Anspitzer

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• MLK jr

possible perpetuations

3 things that make you happy:

• permutations
• pets
• puddles

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• persnicketiness 
• perambulations

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• pedantics
• pontification

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Paul

elbow masklessness

3 things that make you happy:

• elbows
• kneecaps
• earlobes

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• nearness
• touch

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• masklessness
• proximity

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Jerry Davies

potato conundrum

3 things that make you happy:

• conundrums
• quandaries
• enigmas

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• potato
• cats

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• simplification
• ennui

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Rolf Brüning

pencil maps

3 things that make you happy:

• pencils
• pencil sharpeners
• pencil shavings

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• nonsense
• "goofy but sincere"

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• maps
• pictures

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Bob Stewart

muskrat flag

3 things that make you happy:

• having gotten car serviced
• muskrats
• brass pencil sharpeners

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• flag
• Sachsenross

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Ostfriesland book
• Eastern Washington outing

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• MKM

river rainbow

3 things that make you happy:

• sunrise
• rainbow flag
• train pictures

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• pencils
• books

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• labyrinth walk
• river walk

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Ludwig Kenning

blue maple

3 things that make you happy:

• maple treats
• maple trees
• maple toys

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• sunshine
• blue sky

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• trump shit-canned
• spring

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez 

rainbow smiles

3 things that make you happy:

• President-Elect Joe Biden
• Vice-President-Elect Kamala Harris
• Democracy

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• Breathing
• Smiling

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• Rebuilding of America
• Recovery

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Kamala Harris

key lime wind

3 things that make you happy:

• key lime cookies
• bedtime tea
• night walks

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• reading
• wind

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• books
• family

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Nate Silver

liverwort recovery

3 things that make you happy:

• fly agaric
• slime mold
• liverwort

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• library
• beach

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• recovery
• silvester

1 person you are going to appreciate:

•  Jean-Yves Delitte

apple pie catharsis

3 things that make you happy:

• Apple Pie
• Bratwurst
• new unsharpened pencils

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• therapy
• blood draw

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• new president
• catharsis 

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Joe Biden

100 dreams

3 things that make you happy:

• sunrise
• November
• MEW 100

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• anspitzer
• quiet moments

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• dreams
• moving forward

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• MEW

MEW at 43 (me at 14)

[my older daughter is now 43]

brass biscuits

3 things that make you happy:

• bakelite
• biscuits
• brass

2 things you are looking forward to today:

• halloween
• kids in costumes

2 long term things you are looking forward to:

• attic
• daytrips

1 person you are going to appreciate:

• Kristen